Long days spent in self-induced isolation. Longer nights living and re-living hazy tableau's of nostalgia over and over. I take no solace in my misery. My walking death. My body has given up. My mind has quit ages ago. Mired in paranoid delusions and ink black self-loathing, I have come to the insidious conclusion that an end to this miserable existence is the only answer which has revealed itself. I have cauterized all friendships. I have alienated all family ties. I have nothing. Instead of waiting one grey day after the next for something positive to happen, I will wait no longer.
Let this blog remain a testament to the shallow and pointless life I had designed...and the insidious aftermath of its fruit.
Goodbye.
8 comments:
Your words have consoled and inspired me please do not end it.
I agree with the other comment. Please do not end it!
You're an interesting writer and probably an even more interesting person. The world needs more people like you, not less. So stick around a while.
The love you give to others - start giving it to yourself instead. From what I've read those other assholes don't deserve it anyway.
Edward Morgan you have really hit it out of the park...great comment Mr. Blasini I was in the Zona norte last night prescription for hell but knowing what you wrote helped me make it out and the powerful knowledge obtained kept me focused in a dreary weary world I salute you.
Death will come soon enough and it will last forever. Keep exploring and using your gift of writing and things will soon turn for the better. There will always be ups and downs. Most people have them but they have no special gifts to make it worth it.
You are a talented writer and depression comes with the territory - just ask any of the great ones.
Hang in there Kid, you got a lot more to live and love and write.
Thank you all. Your kind words mean a lot to me. I was in a bad place. I will keep going. It has to get better, right?
Glad to see you are back!
Thanks for sticking around mi amigo, lets have a beer at the Villa Garcia.
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