I’ve championed this notion, for as long
as I can recall, that between all of our skin and bones lie some latent cancer
of brilliance. Never fully rearing its ugly head and consuming us with its
dread, it gives me comfort nonetheless, and sometimes is able to spill out if I
leave my mouth running for too long. Spring a leak in my consciousness and out
seeps this goo, these thoughts, wordless yet pursing: I am something beyond
myself, I am here to create something beautiful.
There is something that happens when you
are alone, when your most basic comforts are sacrificed and the world outside
is just that - outside. You become lost in well-earned dreams. Hours of
sweating, tossing and turning, awake and frustrated, lost in the blackness of
night and simply awaiting the dawn you give in to dreams that best life in
every since. Dreams so real and moving you catch yourself trying to speak,
waking up with words already spilling out of your dirty mouth - speaking to
nobody in particular and in response to the blind brilliance of the world
beyond my consciousness.
These places are secret. They are holy.
They are grand and intricate, foolish and gaudy, ruling a realm invisible to
even the greatest of microscopes and keenest of eyes. Dreams of my mother,
offended and spitting. Dreams of my lover, captured and beat. In a world of
darkness the brain has no responsibility to keep you entertained, and so in
this space alone was I free to move and seek and feel.
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