I’ve been sick. I’ve been lonely. More alone than I’ve ever been and I
am more afraid of the things I do when I’m alone. People will say,
“I’m always there if you need me.” But they aren’t. That is a façade. That isn’t
true. If that were the case I’d be okay by now. This past month I’ve been
recovering, but slowly progressing. The reason I’m typing all this is to tell
you I am appreciative of the support my readers have given me. This is not a
cry for help. Although I need some. This is not a plea for attention. I’m just
not okay and I’m okay with that and I’ll be fine soon. To the people who try to
call or text and say “I’m there” don’t bother if you don’t mean it. I’m only
being honest.
Over a month ago I tried to take my own life. Since then I have gotten
help and subtracted a number of people/things out of my life. Everybody (or at
least I hope everybody) has been wondering if I’ve been okay and alive and yes,
it’s obvious, I have been. I’ve lost a lot this year with minimum gain because
I hadn’t taken time for myself to make sure I was alright. I have problems, I’m
not afraid to admit it. Right now is not a good time for me.
2 comments:
Sorry to read you're going through a rough patch. Hang in there. It gets better. It always does. I've had some really sad times in my life and thought about putting a gun to my head several times. I didn't follow through and things always got better. It will for you too.
Thank you, rjjs8878, that is very kind of you to say.
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